Over dinner, Beckett got this idea into his head that he was going to lose a tooth because it hurt and so asked me what kind of a tooth the dentist would replace it with. I said a gold tooth. Beckett thought this was hilarious. Then he asked me again. I'm no Seinfeld, but I know when I have got a receptive audience. Silver was rewarded with gales laughter. We cycled through white, brown, black, green, purple, red, orange. I was really knocking them out of the ball park. Then on to cucumber, apple, banana, peanut butter. Then steel, wood, paper, (enamel thrown in for me), cloth, etc. We kept going, now I don't remember them all, but they got progressively more rediculous. At some point, the question switched into "What kind of tooth are YOU going to give me?" Same kind of answers (over time me racking my brains to keep coming up with options) and same erumpent laughter mixed with flying spittle as a response.
Then without warning, Beckett grew suddenly morose. He hid his head in his arm, looking like he was going to cry. I asked him what was wrong and he said, "I don't have anything to give you, Papa." In that instant, I too got instantly sad, because he was sad. Here we were having this game, and suddenly the fact that I was giving him a tooth got translated in his mind into him owing me something, but he didn't have anything to give. And that got translated into despond. I knelt by him and told him he could give me a hug. But he said, that he didn't have any hugs. Now you want to to talk about me matching his despond. When a three year old tells you that he doesn't have any hugs! I suggested he give me a snuggle or a kiss. He allowed as he might have a little snuggle left in him and then his face got a little brighter and he said that he had some kisses.
I suggested that we go over on the couch and he could just give me a snuggle. So we went over to the couch and snuggled for a while. After a little while, I told him that I would hug him and fill back up his hugs. He told me that his hugs couldn't be filled back up. (Still some daggers in this conversation.) I switched back to snuggles and filled him up with snuggles for a while. Then, I ventured to seeing if he had any laughs in him by tickling him a bit. Now, he was coming back up, and I kept testing him to see if he had more laughs in him and he seemed to have quite the large supply. Soon, we were laughing uproariously on the couch tickling each other and we kept that up for ten minutes or so until he spit up on me.
Talk about an intense half hour.

